What Being Pregnant With a Rainbow Baby Really Feels Like
There's an entire movement around pregnancy and infant loss these days, and one of the biggest things to come out of it is a term: 'Rainbow baby' refers to a child born after a miscarriage, stillbirth, or neonatal death.
Being pregnant after a loss can be an emotionally loaded experience — and it's something hard to understand unless you've been through it yourself. Some moms feel even more fearful throughout subsequent pregnancies, which is a completely understandable thing when you consider what they've experienced. Many moms are filled with an even deeper sense of gratitude while carrying their rainbows. Every experience is different, but one thing is clear: Rainbow pregnancies are incredibly special...but they can also be scary and overwhelming.
We asked a few women what being pregnant with a rainbow baby is really like. Here's what they had to say:
You may take things day by day
It can make embracing the pregnancy tough
'At first, there is an extreme amount of stress, worry and caution. When I found out about this pregnancy around five weeks, I was an emotional wreck! Even my own sister couldn’t understand why I was crying when I told her the news. But after being through so many losses, it was almost like I was waiting for the other shoe to drop. I truly couldn’t allow myself to embrace the pregnancy until I was in my second trimester and beyond that, because of having to go through IVF with PGD three times for my one successful pregnancy, I wanted to get through the amnio before I was fully invested in it.
Sometimes it helps to get help
A rainbow baby may help you heal
You may feel more grateful than you could have imagined
'Losing a child is the single worst thing a mother can go through. Being pregnant again is both exciting and terrifying. You know how precious life is and want to fully embrace this pregnancy, but also can't help but fear the worst. You never truly stop mourning the child you lost, even when you are so excited for this new baby. Even with all the support in the world, it can be extremely lonely. So, waking up each morning and being thankful is sometimes the biggest challenge - but is also the biggest reward. Each day I thank God and Liam (Our angel) for giving me and this baby another day and in doing so,